First Touch

I lost my virginity to you. It wasn't the first time I'd been touched, but for sure the first time I felt it. Left speechless you say things I hear as fragments that come across as sentences all jumbled up. I know it makes no sense, but I can't think in linear patterns anymore. You take letters that normally mean nothing like K and G and form words that I can't stop repeating. My eyes forced closed as I pray it never ends. Open to a sight only queens are accustomed to. A king in your own right I bow down to the power of you on me, over me and in me. And with each stroke of you I am deeply penetrated and affected in ways that don't seem earthly. But you've normalized this place we go to, that you take me to. I know I'm just another statistic, a page in your book, a check mark on some list, but I'm ok with it. I'm just hoping my time will last longer than theirs as I saver the taste and ride the wave that has taken over me. During the day I stare at computer screens, hear names and see faces that should be familiar, but I'm dumb to the world I once knew. Now only present to you in the moments we share and the nights you give to me. Usually in charge I've unwittingly surrendered control and I don't want it back. I whisper words better left Unspoken against your lips and in your ears. You whisper back bars and rhymes and secret prayers decoded by this greedy desire that lies within me. Out of sync and out of control, broken down and remastered just for you. I never knew music could feel so good running through me the way you do. We hit notes not yet measured and create beats that move us in ways we were never meant to move. Cause I ain't never done half this shit before. Too concerned about what it looks like and what they may say. But for you I’ve given up everything. I hold nothing back. I’m so wrapped up in these feelings for you, in this place we go to, that you take me to. I don't know if I’ll ever come down off my high on you. I'd surely never be the same if I did. I mean there are others; were others. You weren't the first by any definition or alternate meaning of the word, but right now there's only one star in my universe. And even though you weren't the first to touch it and taste it, you were absolutely the first and now the only that ever made sure I felt it.